Hello everyone (to the whole… 10 people that read this?):
So I’ve just been thinking / observing about myself and money… I mean - my career path isn’t exactly lucrative. It can be, but for most, it isn’t. Also, even though I am a smart and capable individual, who gets As in school and has managed several successful internships, I’m sort of on a path to financial struggle. I’m going abroad in 3 weeks (I can’t believe it’s this soon, wow) which is putting me in an even bigger heap of debt.
When I get back from Scotland, I might do another internship in LA, but realistically, I won’t be able to afford to move back to such an expensive city. I’ll go back to Tucson, find two jobs, try to buy a cheap car and start paying back my loans. I don’t feel like I was cut out for a life of financial struggle. Besides the whole “having expensive tastes” thing, and growing up around wealth that I didn’t have, I strive for success in my life. I always have, and financial success is a big part of that. I don’t need or want to be fabulously wealthy, but I want to live comfortably enough to have a beautiful home, a nice car / clothes, and be able to vacation. I want a comfortable life. Nothing extravagant. Too much to ask for? I really hope not.
I wish I knew how to better monetize myself, I suppose. I’ve thought about what I have to offer that others don’t have, I don’t have a quick/simple answer. I don’t want to change my major, I’ve invested myself too far into media to turn around. I’ve thought about pursuing something different while keeping up with my media pursuits, which sounds pretty good, but I’m not sure what I could do.
I feel like maybe I should’ve just gotten a business degree, and then an MBA. Even though I love media, I love what I study, it might not be lucrative enough. Should one really just study what makes them happy, with disregard to how they’ll do financially? Surely not. With the economy doing so poorly, maybe it would’ve been the logical idea. I could still go to graduate school and get an MBA. I just may do that. The idea of studying math (even though it’s not a whole lot of math) makes me cringe. It’s my one subject I’ve always done poorly at. I suppose I’ll look into it more, maybe get a GMAT study book. What would I do with an MBA in media? I’ve no idea. I feel lost.
In other news, we are leaving Florida tomorrow and flying back to LA. We got upgraded here at the resort to a corner suite, it’s beautiful, like a small apartment. I was planning on filming my question response video tomorrow, so you’ll likely get to see the room in that video tomorrow. Love you all. <3